The color of deception. I call it gray.

No, people don't change. Environment does.

I found that above picture from one of my friend's blog and started to ponder over it.

I could actually write a whole essay on it while beating around the bush. A little.
However, I have no time and no energy which is the main factor actually, and thus,

I'm not going to bore anyone that actually still reads my blog with my 'essay'.

We always talk about people changing.
Yeah they do, we do.
Because we move on, in different phases of life.
Having different experiences that causes us to have changed in the eyes of others that were there during your previous phase or phases of life.
Take students for example, moving on from secondary to tertiary education,
we change according to our new environment.
Or more specifically, we change to suit our environment, to blend in.

I call that animal instincts.
You may argue, what for change to suit the environment?
Why do you need to blend in?
Why don't you just remain yourself?
Why do you have to change yourself for others?
It all boils down to survival. Of what degree, it differs for everyone I guess.

Now think.
When we've run out of topics with our best friends, is it really the human factor?
Or is it actually the environmental factor?

Ah, now we see, the gray gray world.

It's thanksgiving. Give thanks.

I am suppose to be studying,
but yet I'm updating this blog that no one really reads anymore.
Partially due to me neglecting the blog beh.
Heh, SORRY~

Don't know why when Wanyi's friend went in for operation I felt the anxiousness too.
Probably because I've never seen her like this before?
& now she's okay.
It's time to give thanks.
However, I'm worried about Wanyi, her lungs felt tired before she logged off without a word.
& when I text her I just can't reach her. Aish.

Okay now I'm super worried, because I can't get her via calls either.

I can't continue anymore.

If you didn't realized, I've moved on.

"Picture speaks a thousand words."
So speak now picture. SPEAK.
I'm not lazy to update my blog at all.

Don't like reality, it's way too clear to me.

Hey people, I didn't talk about my day at marina barrage right?
I spent so much time there in one day that I'm sick of it already.
7am to 9pm, how boring can that get!

However, the xiyao peeps made everything so much pleasant.(:

This was the kite we bought.

The dots are kites. Many many pretty kites. Just that picture can't reflect them all.(:

Singapore flyer.

Me and Boss.(:
The first thing he said when he saw me was,:
"你怎么变得那么黑?!"
Hahah! I think I look less dark than the beginning of the year liao lo.

Ang Chong Yee, Lim Hwee Neng, Me, Yong Jen aka Jenny & Janelle the AA QUEEN playing twister.
LOL @ xiao fang lao shi's face which carrying Jayden! :D

Jarrod, this little boy still trying to find the love of his life.
Jiayou bah, it doesn't come easy. (:

Went to Singapore Polytechnic (SP) to scout the school
so that I can surprise someone called W.Meiying on Thursday.
Met wanyi @ 0740 and went to hilltop library with the intention of studying.
Ended up SLEEPING like a PIG.
Oh well, wandered around like some lost soul around the school cause hilltop was too cold.
Saw Joseph while studying at the Study Corner @ T20,

apparently Wanyi doesn't even know that that place existed -.-
Jo came down to find me and brought me back to his friends.
Hahah, finally I wasn't any lost soul any more.(:
On the way there, the person I was suppose to surprise TOMORROW saw me.
That Meiying shouted damn loudly
:" EH WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE I THOUGHT YOU TOLD ME YOU'RE IN SCHOOL?!"
Actually I never tell her I'm in school,
I only said I was having Geography when she asked what lesson was I having. -.-
HER SHOCKED EXPRESSION WAS PRICELESS.
But then, EVERYONE AROUND US LOOKED AT ME LUH.
Great. Now everyone knows I'm an intruder. -.-

Waited for Wanyi & Meiying to end lessons before going down to Moberly.
Wanted to buy SP tee-shirt but no stock T.T
It's okay, I can go there some other time. :D
Trained down to Jurong point and had Ichiban! <3
I keep peeking over the belt and waving to this little boy that was "peeping" at me! *shy*
We were like playing peek-a-boo just that it's the bollywood version.((:
HAHAHA, he was from St. Joseph Kindergaten *nostalgia* SO CUTE!
Apparently the woman opposite of our tables was laughing at me.
& I WAS OBLIVIOUS TO IT UNTIL WOBBY TOLD ME. *scowls*
OH YARH, I WAS WAITING FOR THE BLOODY SALMON SHASHIMI TO SWIM TO ME.
SWIM SO LONG STILL NEVER REACH OF COURSE SO FAT LAH.
So I just ordered it off the menu.(:
The salmon was UBER fresh though, cause it's instantly sliced and served. <3
Spent $29.36 (what the fuck) but at least it was a good meal, HEEHEEHEE.

Mopped around Jurong Point and the Library before going home.(:

I shall dedicate tomorrow to tidying up my stuff & probably go for a swim.
Take care people, the flu bug is spreading! <3

She took him faster you can say sabotage.

Why is it so cold now? No, that's not the point.
I've a feeling that I'm going to fall sick like really soon.

Heh, tomorrow's the end of project work, LIKE FINALLY HUH.
Won't have to communicate with that STUPID AMOEBA EVER AGAIN.
Seriously, I have no idea what is he gonna become and I don't think I give any damn either.
I hope I do wake up early IN TIME and  OMG get my script right. :(

& after all these project work horror, here comes re-test.
It's just so tiring, and what if I can't hold on anymore?
Retention seems to be the best way out for me, and more relaxing too.
But at the same time, it's selfish.

Omg, but at the end of the day, I just have to suck it up and like, STUDY.
Gosh, I can't imagine if I go for second round and I still fail.
I think I'll be so depressed that I'll refuse to study EVER EVER again.
Then AJC, you would know, you ruined my life.
& you would continue to ruin many in time to come. Absolutely positive.

Yes, I'm complaining, I'm whining.
And I absolutely do not think that I brought this upon myself.
Then again, you would argue, which thief would announce to the world that he's one?

*shrugs*
I'll just go pack my bag and get ready for tomorrow to give all the examiners an ear blast.

Puzzled.

So, what do you learn from project work at the end of everything?
You want my honest answer the-creator-of-the-super-horrendous-project-work?
I learn that, that there are really some people who can just sit there and do nothing which I classify as AN AMOEBA which equates to having NEGLIGIBLE EXISTENCE in my context, other than that, NOTHING.

Honestly, what exactly went through those minds when they decided that we actually need our insights & reflections to be drafted time and time again and even to the extent of being APPROVED to get an exceeding expectation (EE)? Since it is suppose to be like, OUR REFLECTIONS? & OUR INSIGHTS?

Peace out. No wait, pissed out.