Blink Blink.

When you wake up some mornings and don't feel good about yourself, when your mirror reflection just makes you beat yourself up even more, it's okay. When you step on the weighing scale and the numbers are not desirable, just so you know, it's alright too. When you watch someone you love, love another, no it's not fine, but it will be. When you're so upset and frustrated with someone but you don't know what to say, when you're misunderstood and never given the chance to clear things up. When you see someone absolutely gorgeous and you're standing there like, yeah. When nothing seems to be on the right track. Don't we all have those days?

No I'm not talking about myself, I'm talking about everyone in general.

It gets better, it really does.

On the phone, get scolded by boyfriend. (Although I also got scold him)

Put down phone, get scolded by parents. (Mai siao I don't there scold back one) 

My whole life just about getting scolded. And I'm gonna regret sleeping this late tomorrow morning. But I don't regret the conversation we had. At least I'm not going to sleep sad and crying. Tomorrow still got tutorial magawd. Ciaos!

Today God wants you to know that you can let yourself be happier.

Happiness is a choice, although often it might seem otherwise. And it starts small.
Today do something that makes you feel happy, and tell your friends about it.

They say laughter is the best medicine.

Miracle potion do your wonders.

Hahahahahaha.

What a coax. Pfft.

Welcome another new month.

A few days ago I was still dying for April to come to an end ASAP. Right now with the kind of opening May gave me, all I can say now is, "it'll get better.". On this fateful day, I damaged my phone for the first time ever. OMG, NEVER FELT SO EMPTY AND HELPLESS BEFORE. I LOVE MY PHONE AND I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT IT. Gonna get it fixed tomorrow early in the morning with Z, and hopefully by night time I can get it back D: The worse part is that my phone is now entirely blue screen, so it still vibrates with notifications and stuff, but I cannot read it. It really kills me hahaha, why don't my phone vibrate as much on normal days?! But it's okay because the repair fee is not gonna be very expensive hahaha~

There are many things I wanna say to you, but I don't know how to put them in visual words, so I'm just gonna keep them in my heart. You just need to know, and I think you already know, that I love you as much as the first day we got together. Happy 15th. :)

No shit.

So as the title says, this post is about no shit. Nope just kidding, I'm just really bored now because I have nothing to do, but I'm not tired enough to go to bed and I don't wanna go bother other people ya know because I'm considerate just like that~

Nothing much has been going on lately, except that I have started working a few days back and school has started too. I guess it's a good thing that I'm studying and working at the same time, so that I won't have excess free time to be bored and feel lonely cause Z's working too. So far our luck has been really bad with our schedule clashing and all. But I always tell myself, it's for the better, it's for the kaching! And we're gonna spend the rest of our lives together so let's not get all picky on short hours. But as an overly attached girlfriend, sometimes I really miss him and stuff so yeah lor. Good distraction that comes with money. ;)

School has been okay too, this semester like a lot of lessons need to bring laptop ah! Not sure if we're really trying to go green or the lecturers are just being lazy. Not really keen for internship to come though, long hours plus poor pay. Or should I say transport fee? But with Z enlisting and all, it's again a wonderful distraction huh. When I was younger, I never imagined myself needing to go through NS with my boyfriend because I assumed I wouldn't have one, but now that everything is approaching so quickly, I can't help but feel grown up! Yay! Because it just means that I'm one step closer to England and poverty free! T.T

I wish my passport would be renewed like right now. Can't wait for June to come, but I don't want June to come either. Let's set aside June's feelings for June.

I'm going to sleep now, and hoping for better dreams. :)

Grateful heart.

Tonight I give thanks.

I'm thankful for my friends, to those who have left, and to those who had the patience to stick around somemore. Thank you for being there to share my experience, to catch my tears, tolerating all my nonsense, and making my life so colourful and happy.

I'm thankful for my boyfriend, who became my priority in life, who gave me a priority in life. Although it might have been a little too much for him, still I'm thankful. I thank him for all the times where he has to put up with my bad temper, and for telling me the truth all the time when most boyfriends would pick and select.

I'm thankful for my family, for caring for me, for scolding me when they are in a bad mood, and for allowing me to do crazy things once in a while. I thank them for moulding me into who I am. Although not perfect, but not an utter bitch at least.

I'm thankful for my country, for being so safe and peaceful. I'm thankful that this country is so strict, giving us freedom. After all, what is freedom without rules?

I'm thankful for all the strangers that smiled at me when we make eye contact, and the ones that reciprocate when I smile at them. They make my day so much better. I'm thankful for those who held a straight face or didn't respond because it allowed me to realise that there are people whose burdens are so heavy they can't smile.

Tonight, I'm just thankful to be alive and loved.