People say.

We often set our level at "idol" level, that's why nothing seems to be good. We're too exposed to so many unrealistic things in this world, and we expect the unrealistic to happen in this realistic world. More often than not, they don't, of course. And then we get upset, we wonder why it's so unfair.

Maybe we should all snap out of it, and learn how to differentiate between reality and fantasy.

I used to think "Oh boy, where do I find a guy who can match up to Changmin.". The truth is Changmin is not real. He's there for our entertainment, his life story is our inspiration, but we'll never really know DBSK, we'll never really know Changmin. And they are not that perfect. They screw up, they make mistakes. We just don't see that, and they don't make mistakes on us. That's why they're called idols.

Falling in love made me realise how foolish it was to actually wanna find a guy like my idol. It shouldn't be this way. And I'm glad it wasn't. 

Z's so much more than Changmin. He makes me angry, he makes me laugh, he makes me cry but wipes my tears away. He gives me strength and courage, and forgives me for my mistakes. He understands me, loves me and acknowledges me. He has a big heart, a kind soul and a gentle spirit. I guess that's where I fell in love.

And I hope every fan girl in this world would find someone that's so much more than their idols.

Goodnight!

Supper @ Spize

Impromptu supper at Spize with Z on Sunday after his work! Wasn't exactly where we planned to eat, but oh well, we ended up at a really good place for supper! ;)

Unguarded Z.

After he realized I was taking a picture of him. In normal situations, the pictures would be reversed but well...  okaynevermind.

 Ordered black pepper beef hor fun and Z got their Special Roti John with mutton! The roti john was awesome because the mutton totally don't have the mutton taste! Mixed with mushroom and it was yumyumyummmmm! My beef horfun was not too bad, except that the beef was a little bit overcooked!

Their satay was good, but I don't fancy the sauce. 

Nahs never fancy satay sauce but Z said that it was good, so I suppose, it's good?

Impulse order: Cheese Fries
We only ordered this because we saw the waiter walk pass us with that and we were like "WOOOOOOOW" it looks so damn good so we just ordered it. Couldn't finish this in the end because we were both sooo full from our main course.

CLOSE UP. LOOK AT ALL THE CHEESE.

Supper and road trips with Z are always fun and spontaneous. I suppose it's cool because I plan stuff too much so I get kinda uncomfortable when things don't go according to 'the plan'. Ever since I got together with Z so many things have been 'off plan' and somehow I just got out of my comfort zone and go with the flow. Sometimes, spontaneous is not that bad. ;)

Final Lap.

OMG JUST SUBMITTED MY INTERNSHIP CHOICES OHMYGODDDDDD, I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING BUT I JUST GOTTA TRUST MY INSTINCTS MAN.

Hopefully I get either one of my choices because if I randomly get posted to that PR company, I can say hello to hell for like 6 months okay. OKAY CALM YOURSELF GIRL. Don't think about it because it will happen it you think too much it's that scary okay.

Yes that's all.

Blink Blink.

When you wake up some mornings and don't feel good about yourself, when your mirror reflection just makes you beat yourself up even more, it's okay. When you step on the weighing scale and the numbers are not desirable, just so you know, it's alright too. When you watch someone you love, love another, no it's not fine, but it will be. When you're so upset and frustrated with someone but you don't know what to say, when you're misunderstood and never given the chance to clear things up. When you see someone absolutely gorgeous and you're standing there like, yeah. When nothing seems to be on the right track. Don't we all have those days?

No I'm not talking about myself, I'm talking about everyone in general.

It gets better, it really does.

On the phone, get scolded by boyfriend. (Although I also got scold him)

Put down phone, get scolded by parents. (Mai siao I don't there scold back one) 

My whole life just about getting scolded. And I'm gonna regret sleeping this late tomorrow morning. But I don't regret the conversation we had. At least I'm not going to sleep sad and crying. Tomorrow still got tutorial magawd. Ciaos!

Today God wants you to know that you can let yourself be happier.

Happiness is a choice, although often it might seem otherwise. And it starts small.
Today do something that makes you feel happy, and tell your friends about it.

They say laughter is the best medicine.

Miracle potion do your wonders.

Hahahahahaha.

What a coax. Pfft.