Final Lap.

OMG JUST SUBMITTED MY INTERNSHIP CHOICES OHMYGODDDDDD, I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING BUT I JUST GOTTA TRUST MY INSTINCTS MAN.

Hopefully I get either one of my choices because if I randomly get posted to that PR company, I can say hello to hell for like 6 months okay. OKAY CALM YOURSELF GIRL. Don't think about it because it will happen it you think too much it's that scary okay.

Yes that's all.

Blink Blink.

When you wake up some mornings and don't feel good about yourself, when your mirror reflection just makes you beat yourself up even more, it's okay. When you step on the weighing scale and the numbers are not desirable, just so you know, it's alright too. When you watch someone you love, love another, no it's not fine, but it will be. When you're so upset and frustrated with someone but you don't know what to say, when you're misunderstood and never given the chance to clear things up. When you see someone absolutely gorgeous and you're standing there like, yeah. When nothing seems to be on the right track. Don't we all have those days?

No I'm not talking about myself, I'm talking about everyone in general.

It gets better, it really does.

On the phone, get scolded by boyfriend. (Although I also got scold him)

Put down phone, get scolded by parents. (Mai siao I don't there scold back one) 

My whole life just about getting scolded. And I'm gonna regret sleeping this late tomorrow morning. But I don't regret the conversation we had. At least I'm not going to sleep sad and crying. Tomorrow still got tutorial magawd. Ciaos!

Today God wants you to know that you can let yourself be happier.

Happiness is a choice, although often it might seem otherwise. And it starts small.
Today do something that makes you feel happy, and tell your friends about it.

They say laughter is the best medicine.

Miracle potion do your wonders.

Hahahahahaha.

What a coax. Pfft.

Welcome another new month.

A few days ago I was still dying for April to come to an end ASAP. Right now with the kind of opening May gave me, all I can say now is, "it'll get better.". On this fateful day, I damaged my phone for the first time ever. OMG, NEVER FELT SO EMPTY AND HELPLESS BEFORE. I LOVE MY PHONE AND I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT IT. Gonna get it fixed tomorrow early in the morning with Z, and hopefully by night time I can get it back D: The worse part is that my phone is now entirely blue screen, so it still vibrates with notifications and stuff, but I cannot read it. It really kills me hahaha, why don't my phone vibrate as much on normal days?! But it's okay because the repair fee is not gonna be very expensive hahaha~

There are many things I wanna say to you, but I don't know how to put them in visual words, so I'm just gonna keep them in my heart. You just need to know, and I think you already know, that I love you as much as the first day we got together. Happy 15th. :)

No shit.

So as the title says, this post is about no shit. Nope just kidding, I'm just really bored now because I have nothing to do, but I'm not tired enough to go to bed and I don't wanna go bother other people ya know because I'm considerate just like that~

Nothing much has been going on lately, except that I have started working a few days back and school has started too. I guess it's a good thing that I'm studying and working at the same time, so that I won't have excess free time to be bored and feel lonely cause Z's working too. So far our luck has been really bad with our schedule clashing and all. But I always tell myself, it's for the better, it's for the kaching! And we're gonna spend the rest of our lives together so let's not get all picky on short hours. But as an overly attached girlfriend, sometimes I really miss him and stuff so yeah lor. Good distraction that comes with money. ;)

School has been okay too, this semester like a lot of lessons need to bring laptop ah! Not sure if we're really trying to go green or the lecturers are just being lazy. Not really keen for internship to come though, long hours plus poor pay. Or should I say transport fee? But with Z enlisting and all, it's again a wonderful distraction huh. When I was younger, I never imagined myself needing to go through NS with my boyfriend because I assumed I wouldn't have one, but now that everything is approaching so quickly, I can't help but feel grown up! Yay! Because it just means that I'm one step closer to England and poverty free! T.T

I wish my passport would be renewed like right now. Can't wait for June to come, but I don't want June to come either. Let's set aside June's feelings for June.

I'm going to sleep now, and hoping for better dreams. :)